I'm so Worried About my Future

I'm so confused about what I want my career path to be. I know I'm thirteen, but I need some comfort and maybe some nuggets of wisdom from some of you guys.

I've always loved perfroming. I love being on stage. Acting, singing, improvisation; you name it! I audition for everything and I'm starting lessons at the Alliance Theater next Saturday. But sometimes I feel so out of it (I'm sure performers don't ALWAYS want to go to rehearsal, but I feel it all the time!). Sometimes I absolutely hate theatre, and it stresses me out.

I've also wanted to do things in a recording studio. I love writing poems, and songs are pretty much poems set to a tune. I was taught how to play the guitar, and I teach myself piano. I just feel like I want to have band to be with. All those people who made history are bands. I also feel like nobody would want to listen to my music. Today's music is ALOT different than the music I like (the Beatles, The Who, The Eagles, Elvis, etc.)

I've also want to be a photographer. I take pictures with my Nikon all the time, and sometimes they get in the school newspaper. Linda Eastman is my photography inspiration, and I want to be just like her (maybe I'll marry one of the most coveted rockstars of our time? )

I've also had the aspiration to write. My school newspaper lets me write some articles and my english teacher tells me I'm one of the most creative writers she's ever met.

I also think God is calling me to be a missionary. I've always loved helping people. He keeps tugging on my heart to do this. I feel like if I have an earthly career I'd be wasting my life. When I go to Heaven, I want to be fulfilled and be able to smile at Jesus and say," I did it."

I'm hoping to go to Julliard for about 3 years, then go to an Oxford College to study some Theology and Liberal Arts (and maybe some photography if they offer it), then I would love to go LIPA (Liverpool Institute for Performing Arts) for the next 2 years.

Maybe I need a reality check and be out into focus by some you guys. This situation is making me very anxious (I'm diagnosed with an Anxiety disorder), and I had a panic attack. My mom said she talk to me about it, but until then, I look forward to your responses.

God Bless.

Don't take too close at present age. Enjoy hanging around with friends while you're young. Think about it after 5 years. Live life while you can because when you'll grow up - new road will open with a lots of difficulties. Dream dreams and chase them!

At 13, you have plenty of time to get your head sorted out, decide where your talents lie, what you're really passionate about and what is the best path for you.
Don't hurry it.
Concentrate on school for now - whatever you eventually choose, getting a great education will be of vital importance and the more top grades you get, the bigger your choices will be.

Unless you really love going to theatre all the time - or at least 95% of the time - it's not for you. My daughter is a professional actor, and she tells me that if she didn't absolutely love every second of the whole acting process - blocking, line-learning, initial runs-through, rehearsals, set-building, learning new skills, applying make-up, performing, then de-constructing the set, cleaning up, and then starting the whole thing again - she's go nuts.

Being anxious is something you'll have to get over. It usually just goes as you get older, but for actors, it's a real problem, as they get rejected, criticised and ridiculed on an almost daily basis - you have to be very tough and thick-skinned to be an actor!

For now - chill, enjoy being a child, join a few clubs or out-of-school activities, have fun! Take photos - write stories and articles - write poems and songs - play music - do it all.
But no decisions are necessary for many years yet.
Don't be so hard on yourself.
Be happy!
xx

For now at the age of 13, enjoy your life for now. Worry about this when your 18.